Hoping for a Little Light

Today is a big day for Mom. Recently we found out that she has breast cancer. I huge shock to us all! We all thought that she was moving on to the next chapter but God decided that to insert this one chapter unexpectedly. As a family we are all dealing with it in our own ways. I am here in Oklahoma checking my phone for updated text via Manny, Mom's boyfriend, watching my FB to see if people have posted on her wall that I have forgotten to update on what was going on (sorry Shelly and Drew), and checking my email to see if anyone has written.

Today is Mom's surgery to remove the lump she found a few months back. We know nothing. Not the stage, not if it has spread, not how long she is going to have to do radiation & chemo. Not anything. I think it is just very frustrating. I'm a concrete person. I like to know the facts. For example, child labor will suck, being a parent is hard, marriage is work. I hate hearing, your mom is going to be okay. She will pull through. Everything is going to be fine. Does anyone really know the answers to these questions...no, not yet. Do I hope my mom will be okay, of course I do. Do I think she is going to pull through, absolutely. Is everything going to be fine...Define what "fine" really is to a person.

I'm not a glass half empty kind of person but I am a the glass is half full but it isn't all the way full, it could fall over and be almost empty but still have a little bit of milk left in it. So here I sit, waiting for the glass to fall over but also knowing that it might be just fine and someone is going to come around and fill it up. Hoping all is alright with my mother and that everything is fine and we can all move on to what is next for all of us.

**Edited**Mom is doing well. Surgery went okay, they took out the lump and it was a little bigger than expected and some of the surrounding lymph nodes. The lump as about the size of a baseball. We still won't really know anything until they do the biopsy on the lump and those results won't be for another week or so. She should go home sometime this evening. My father and Manny are both with her. I have spoken to them both. Hoping, wishing, praying for a speedy recovery for my Mom. Love you Mom!!